Urban Shamanism

Hardship is the gateway for growth

I didn't even pull the Daily Runes yesterday because I had to make use of quite a bit of energy on Tuesday helping my friend in Argentina deal with some confusion in her current situation. We held a full videocall to discuss many things and in the process, I felt the re-emergence of important memories and signs. The call lasted well into the night and, although we were exultant to have a more continuous conversation for once, we ended up exhausted, so I woke up rather late and decided to make a bit of progress in the translation of another human rights report, this time about violent deaths. Meanwhile, in the periphery, my sisters have been talking a lot about the assassination of Haiti's president and the armed conflict to the west of the city between regime security forces and one of the crime lords they themselves propped up into power. Not the gentlest kind of information to wake up to.

I've been feeling this need to get away for a while, to just spend time by myself in a solitary place and clear my mind. At the same time, I know that I can't just leave for an entire week because I depend on content creation right now as means of sustenance. This is a hard balance to keep; on the one hand, I know I can deal with it on my own, and on the other, I'm also aware that I can't explain it to most people I know, but I'm also grateful because it's allowed me to unveil and slowly explore an old and serious wound whose effects have been tremendously detrimental for my social development in general and my intimate relations in particular. It's a wound that dates back at least to my teenage years in this incarnation and is likely ancestral in nature, and this is the first time that I'm really getting into it, understanding why it's there and how it works, no doubt prompted also by my work on Monday. It's a good thing that I don't have a problem with emotional denial, there's a part of me that always enjoys getting into these internal clusterfucks and untangle them because, even if they're tough, they inevitably reveal themselves as enormous treasure troves once dismantled.

The New Moon in Cancer comes this weekend, I can absolutely feel its influence and I'm sure all of you can as well to some degree. Today I have no recommendations or deep reflections for you save for those that are already expressed by Laguz: don't try to rationalize whatever you're going through right now, don't attempt to wall yourself in hoping that the storm will pass, it won't until you get in there and face it, there's no escape from the deserts and jungles inside of us, we can only arm ourselves with courage and cross them or risk a bigger collapse later on. The world around us is a living, breathing creature and, like us, it responds to sensations and vibrations. Don't try to flee, feel!

Night Rune: Fehu

I am in the back of a car with a friend, while another friend is both driver and copilot and claims to know what he is doing. I correct him.

Daylight message: Laguz

Potent lunar influence. You must admit and process your emotions with openness and honesty, denying them will not prevent you from experiencing them. Recognize the world around you as a sensible entity and communicate from sensation and feeling. A great tide of memories comes that demands from you self-control and balance but also promises profound wisdom; intellect is a poor tool for this period, all those who cling to analytical logic are only accumulating internal pressure that may blow up at any moment. The invisible plains are revealed to your perception in an unprecedented dimensional confluence, prepare yourself to explore and raise protections against dense energies. Before the Abyss be aware that the ego is the one that suffers, the soul is only Love and Peace.